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因为寂寞难耐，我又开始写SPACE

一个人坐在电脑前，对自己说话，发牢骚又将成为我每天必做的事情

6月底，就会剩下我一个，该走的都走了。

前一个星期，每天都在为签证的事情纠结，吃不下，睡不着。直到舌苔变色，眼花，才发现我应该注意下自己的身体了。

现在想通了，也放下了。就一句STILL WAITING 4 CONSIDERATION,彻底让我死了心。

一步步的来，一件件的去做，总会有下来的一天。只是，我幻想很久的暑假，算是泡汤了。（不过也不一定，说不定下个月就下来了）

 

其实我都有不读的想法，干脆什么都不管，回国。只是这样就太对不起自己，对不起所有人。

人，每天忙忙碌碌，烦这烦那，到底为的是什么？人，一个劲的想往上爬，到底又为了什么？

你还会想我吗？你还会惦记我吗？

 

前天想通了一个道理，就算一个人再怎么爱你，也会有离开的一天，因为你不懂得珍惜。

如果你真的离开了，那也都是我自找。因为曾经的我不懂得珍惜，也不值得你留恋。

 

想想3年前我那张稚嫩，任性中又带点傲气的脸，现在都不存在了。

 

 

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　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　many times I've been alone                                                
and many times I've cried
                                                

the many ways I've tried      
  any way you'll never know

 

 

 

 

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5/17 2:22

 

 

Suddenly I 'm looking at myself in the mirror...I got a strange face .
I don't know ..why I always worry about something and what am I thinking about.these days.....
This morning I got a call which from my dad..HE said ---don't thinking to much about only one thing...otherwise you will be a melancholic.
I have tried to self diagnose the reasons for my jitters, melancholy and inquietude...but...I still could not figure out the source or any potential reasons for my case of the JITTERS AND MELANCHOLY. May be..I need someone in my life that I can tell my life story to, all the trials and tribulations, and he still keeps coming back for more. Someone who has been my rock, my light in the storm, and probably doesn't even know it. Someone whose advice I listen to, hardly ever take, and then am kicking myself because it almost always turns out to be right.
Sometimes we have someone in our lives that just fits.  There are no complications, no trying to explain things to, no struggle to find the right words to let them see what you are feeling.  They just understand and they are there for you. .....
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....now.....I'm a craven........i know........I want someone to save me...but....
Who knows what my problem is... maybe I'm thinking too much.  Maybe I need a break.  Maybe NOT. .....
now...--.knackered.--.....
I can not write anything out...I'm so tired.....so it will be my last blog before i am come back.

 

 

 

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Most of us long for relationships in which

 

we are loved and

 

accepted just the way we are.

 

 Our hearts' desire is to give

 

and receive love in relationships that

 

make us feel that

 

even if others disagree with what we do or say,

 

they still love us.

 

They accept us.

 

 They appreciate our contributions to the world.

 

While it would be wonderful to have these types

 

of relationships with all people,

 

 we know that that's hard to do.

 

We can, however, have them with some others,

 

but only when we first have them with ourselves-and,

 

ironically, this is often the hardest relationship of all. 

 

GOD ,God loves us, totally and unconditionally.

 

GOD ,PLZ PLZ let me fly,fly to my heart.

 

let me know where is  my love,

 

where is my way,and  then

 

let me foRGET everything I DID.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I can not write anything out...BECAUSE U.....so it will be my last blog before i am  go back.